Trying to keep up with someone who has long legs can be challenging. But trying to lead them can be nearly impossible especially if we don’t know the way. Sometimes when God is leading us a different way than we have planned, we may feel like we can’t keep up. And then we think, I know a better way, so we try to step in front of God and attempt to lead Him. Each time I have thought my way is better than God’s, I end up falling flat on my face. I am reminded of Jeremiah 10:23:“I know that a man’s life is not his own, it is not for man to direct his steps.”
Recently, my life took a different turn than I had planned. About two years ago, I opened up to friendship with a man who was fellow widow. Through sharing our lives and losses, we became inseparable comrades, and we fell in love with each other. I was excited about the feelings I had for Jim Turner, yet wondered how this new relationship would fit into God’s call on my life. When Jim asked me to marry him, I really wanted to say yes, but I felt guilty about my happiness and was confused about my future being altered. I prayed I would hear from the Lord, yet it seemed like He was silent. I sought the advice of many counselors, but their advice wasn’t what I wanted to hear. My questioning mind and anxious heart pushed me to seek peace and rest for my soul. One day, God said to my spirit,” To hear from Me; you must believe me. Believe I am working and trust Me to lead you in My ways. “A man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps” (Proverbs 16:9).
Little did I know how perfectly God was providing for me through my recent marriage to Jim Turner. Our fairytale wedding took place at my home church in Davis, California, on April 12, 2014. Both of my parents and my two adult children with their spouses participating in the service. A mere ten weeks later, my beloved father unexpectedly passed away in his sleep. I am thankful for God’s care and provision for my emotional, spiritual, and financial needs through a man who loves God, His word, and, of course, me.
As we let God lead us, through uncharted territory, we must allow Him to lift us above our own will. The poster that comes to mind is “Footprints,” when there was only one pair of footprints and the Lord was carrying his child through the rough terrain.
Let’s pray, “Dear Father, our prayer is for you to “let us keep in step with the spirit” (Galatians 5:25). Let our will be your will and let your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Help us not to run ahead of you, but to stay close to you, trusting that you know the way. Let our footprints be as one, “that we should follow in his steps” (1 Peter 2:21). In Jesus’ Name, amen.