Flat on My Face


Did you know it’s possible to survive a free-fall from the Sears Tower in Chicago? There are ways to increase your chances of survival in a fall; in the same way, we can be prepared for the times when life knocks us down.

One morning, I was putting on my makeup and found a lump underneath my left eye. Weeks later, the lump doubled in size. Soon, my schedule was overrun by appointments, cat scans, a biopsy, and fear that gripped me like a vice. Like a free-fall without parachute, I felt out of control, helpless, terrified—about to be splattered on the pavement.

Inside the horrible MRI tube, I was told to hold still, so singing or praying aloud was out of the question. My anxious, unsettled mind reached out, “Help me Lord.” I remembered studying the helmet of salvation. Psalm 27:1 (NIV) says, “The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?” I felt peace about the mysterious tests, unknown future, and imminent treatment.


The dreaded diagnosis confirmed: cancer—stage four non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. Daily, I meditated on verses such as Psalm 57:1 (NIV): “Have mercy on me, my God, for in you I take refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed.” My fear turned to faith as I chose to hold on so God could pick me up after falling flat on my face.

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